German-Boyfriend

In a hospital lies a cancered head, and attached to the cropped orb is a child who just took their last breath, and next to that child are parents who gave all their money and time to their child to keep them alive. Across the world is a 'woman' who just got married. This woman is not yet even 13, yet she had met her husband of 35. She dons her bridal gown and headdress and mets him in their bed, and nine months later she dies in childbirth, bearing her baby girl into the same life she had. A elderly person has just now woken up, and next to them lies their spouse of 50 years, their love tracing back all the way to '65. As they roll over to

Rock N' Roll Frank It was 3 am on a summer night when my friend Frank called me up and told me he wanted to kill himself. We were 14 and already thinking about our veins unwinding and spilling into a puddle of red wine, like most kids we had no true idea of what "Death" was or how we would get there but unlike most kids we wanted it. I was in the bed of my Uncle's truck when my phone lit up and I started to sob because Frank was what kept me together and without him I would be dead. Frank was always a slow texted but he must've been serious because his texts came back to me faster than a bullet through the sky, and Frank was hardcore-- F

I won't think twice before downing the pills. I'll make sure to leave a heartfelt note so Your brain won't be overwhelmed by the thrills Instead it will turn to cheap jello. I'll make sure that you know I loved you. I realized I don't know what love is. So I'll leave instructions on what to do: Cremate me and burn my body, so it Return to the dust which we all are made. But first, clean my skin and pop all my zits So I can still look great and throw some shade. I want to be scattered on my birthday, And in the harbor of my hometowns' bay.

Take a good look on the mirror and tell me: Is it time to stop changing yourself? "You've changed so much, take a long look and see, Is this good for your strength or mental health?" If I rip off my skin, will you see flesh? Or will you say it's not what I need?   Should I pull my heart out of my 'dead' chest, Is all you want to see is me bleed? I'll yank out all of my chattering teeth And all my hairs. Then you can behold All of my passion I've put underneath. What used to be life is now growing mold Because I have destroyed myself for you. Will you have something old, or something new?

I hope one day I can find someone that Will let them show me all of my scar tissue. I'll flutter like the deft wings of a bat They'll hold me close and say "It's no issue And is not your fault you turned out this way. Because I hurt myself too. Take a look." I'll kiss all of their scars, scattered like hay And they'll kiss kiss mine, reading me like a book. We'll cuddle and embrace under the sky, Comparing our flaws to the dim stars. I'll be held and held, and never say goodbye For the first time, we'll be fine with our scars. I doubt that day will come anytime soon, So I'll continue wishing on the moon.

It's a feeling that doesn't go away Creeping through the recesses of your mind The rest of your thoughts are scattered, astray Making you want to watch your veins unwind Your brain is forever tethered down And your eyes lose their saccharine, sweet glow My face is warped into a constant frown And my only thought is "It's time to go." My body is now a suffer puppet, Filled with all things I loathe a despise And I know one day I'll say "Fuck It." No longer hiding behind a disguise, I'll be gone. Dead. Forgotten and erased. Death will no longer be the ending race.

An open apology letter to all my friends, To those who I have wronged. To those who I forgot about. To those who have left me. To those who have moved on. To those who are no longer here. To those who are still by my side. A simple text which I forgot to reply to made you forget my existence. A misunderstanding of my words which made you begin to hate yourself. A phone number I forgot. A letter you never replied to. A moment which you grew up too fast. A simple "I love you, take your time before we meet again" before my eyes wept and your soul wept red. A simple "Hey, what's your name?" That made my entire year. I think about replying.